On the friend zone

My sophomore year of high school i developed what has turned out to be a three year strong friendship with a senior that I'll call H. H and i had similar beliefs and interests, yet enough conflicting views to keep things interesting. Throughout our friendship i have grown to see him as the big brother i never had.
H sees things differently.
On multiple occasions, H has confessed his love to me and told me how well he would treat me, sucking me in to a sappy romantic void that, while sometimes is nice, most of the time frustrates me.
I've told him in subtle, yet firm ways that i am not interested. I love him deeply but only platonically. The thought of us in a relationship is almost laughable.
To begin with, my sexuality is a barrier. I am a girl who is attracted to girls and there have been two exceptions to that rule in my teenage life. H has not been one of those exceptions.
H is pro life. I am pro choice. This would be, and has been already, the start of many arguments that would potentially ruin a romance. Imagine scenario pregnancy: I get pregnant. I want an abortion. He wants the child. Naturally an argument of epic proportions ensues, and i don't really have to finish the scenario, do i ?
I am not attracted to H. I can appreciate that he is adorable, and he reminds me of a cuddle teddy bear, but i could never kiss him, hold his hand, or, God forbid, have sex with him.
Sometimes i feel bad. I feel bad because i know that he thinks he is in love with me. Truth be told, i don't think he really knows how to separate love from mere infatuation. My point is this.
I cannot make myself attracted to him anymore than my would-be-won't-be girlfriends can make themselves attracted to me.
If you find yourself in the "friend zone", regardless of your gender, take a step back and recognize the facts.
This person is your friend, has been your friend and, if you exercise maturity, will still be your friend after your confession of feelings. Appreciate that.
Expecting this person to turn off their legitimate feelings to save yours and enter a relationship with you is selfish and un realistic.  The relationship would only end in you getting hurt, asking them why they weren't honest from the beginning, and leaving said person banging their head against the nearest wall until you finally understood.
Do not, ever, do not pull the "nice guy" card. "This is what i get for being the nice guy. This is what being the good guy gets me."
Please, good sir, put your plaid fedora on and exit the building in a timely fashion.

Introductory post

I've had this blog for three years now, and I've used it on and off for different purposes. Sometimes to document my life, a sort of on line journal, sometimes to voice my opinion on current events, and sometimes to write about fashion.
I've never kept up with it, obviously, and it's sat on the sidelines for the last year or so.
In the last few months my entire life has changed. My relationship status, unemployment, living arrangements, even close friends have all changed and i find myself in a sort of stand still.
In times like these i find that the only way for me to get out of a rut is to write about whatever comes to mind.
So that's what this is for.
Here you'll find my opinion on young adulthood, relationships, current events, and perhaps most prominently, what it's like to work minimum wage at a small town grocery store.
Here goes nothing.